MONSTER! – Part 2

I LOVE being told how stupid I am, or uneducated, or uninformed or whatnot. It makes my day most of the time. When it happens, I cackle from my office like I’m Lex Luthor or Dr. Claw, which garners odd looks from my assistant. And that’s all the impact it has for you folk signalling your great intelligence, and amazing time management skills, by doing such. Continue reading

Thoughts on Rogue One (Trying Not To Spoiler)

I’ve had a few hours to think about Rogue One. I went in skeptical, because Force Awakens was such a Hollywood soft reboot it was insulting to our collective intelligences, as well made as it was, and I was expecting this movie to be a member berries-filled ride as obnoxious as that. Starting as a prequel where we know exactly where the plot goes (spoiler: someone steals the death star plans and they find a weakness in its construction!), it’s very easy to have low expectations on the film, with the assumption that it would be filled with the same member berries that made Force Awakens so disappointing after time to process it.

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5 Authors You May Never Have Heard Of And Should Support For Christmas!

It’s presents time. For yourself for your reading edification, and also for your friends and family. While I really want you to buy my book for every single person you know and then have them do the same for every person they know… there are other deserving authors out there of whom I am a fan. I mention a lot of personally knowing these folk, which I do to varying degrees for most, but I am a chatty person so that tends to happen when I read someone’s work or see them at a convention. So let’s focus on them for a post or so: Continue reading

Anxiety Dreams

I have some pretty strange anxiety-based dreams, and have for the longest time. Not sure what’s involved with it but because of that, I have trouble sleeping when I’m not in my own bed, especially when I’m in a car or on an airplane—as I have this phobia where I think if I’m not awake to do something or react, that I may die in that situation. Every time I fall asleep on a pain I wake up in a panic when there’s a bump. In a car, I feel my neck starting to weigh heavy and wake up thinking it’s going to snap from my head rolling. It’s pretty draining at times.

I think my most difficult dream was in 2009 or so, when I was certain that we were getting nuked by North Korea. I, before I was awake and cognizant, ran outside, saw the early 5 am morning sun with a ton of red in the sky, and really panicked until I realized where I was and what I was doing.

Last night, I woke up thinking that fluid was filling my lungs and I was going to die, and also thought I was an extreme old age. It was bizarre, and partially because I’ve been pretty sick this last week (which is why I’ve been quieter than usual).

Anyone else have odd sleeping patterns like this? Is there anything to be done about it? When it happens, I spend the next day so tired and drained, and therefore unproductive. Would be nice to have a solution.